Favourite genre of music: Rock, Electronic, Pop
Favourite style of art: Cel-Shaded, CG, Watercolor
Favourite cartoon character: Yukine (Nora), Yuri & Estelle (ToV), Rukia (Bleach), Asch (TotA)
This weekend I lost an older brother, my best friend for as long as I can remember. We used to play Ninja Turtles as a family, and this brother always played the role of Leonardo. He was our leader, and that was the case in play and outside of play. As his little sister, I followed his example a lot more than I think he realized. Most of my hobbies came from him—he was an artist, so I started drawing. He loved video games, so I did too. Plus a slew of other things… I did everything I could to be around him and to spend time with him.
Recently, his life took several nasty turns. One thing after another seemed to fall apart on him. Then, losing his job pushed him over the edge. He turned to alcohol as a coping mechanism and started forgetting to take his medication for his already bad heart. He started having severe symptoms, and he blew them off and was completely indifferent about his health. No matter what people said or did, he would not get out of his slump—depression hit hard, and it held fast.
I just wish he could have understood that this wasn't the end… At under 40 years of age, this situation was not permanent. This pain was not permanent. This lack of hope was not permanent. Even if it lasted for another month, another year… there are 40+ more years where things could turn around, where there could be beauty made of ashes. But he sank further and further and let nothing pull him out, and then his heart failed and he passed away.
All because a temporary situation robbed him of his hope.
For anyone going through crappy circumstances, I just want to remind you that it isn't the end. It's okay to feel miserable, it's okay to experience sorrow and pain, but don't ever let those things take your hope. In doing so, in giving up, you create a permanent solution for a temporary situation. There is always time for change, whether you're 30, 40, 50, 60, 70, or 100. Our God is a God who resurrects from the dead in a blink. There is nothing in your life or your situation that God cannot redeem SOMETIME. Maybe not today, maybe not tomorrow, maybe not even in a year. But God is able and willing.
Please see the race through to the end. Don't lie down and give up. There's a finish line worth making it to, whether we realize it now or not. You are loved and treasured, and every moment is a gift—please make the most of it.